Your promise, just delayed

Again and again
being left in disappointment and sadness
Delayed and delayed
Everyday I think, I convince, I plan, I dream, I believe
but the day still never comes

Seriously,I'm not blaming you
It's never your fault
I understand but I just couldn't hide my sorrow
Please forgive my fragility
Could it be our destiny,
with multiple barriers standing in our ways
No,I will only believe that they were tests from god for us

When all these started
I truely understand what my heart thinks
what my heart wants
what my heart never gives up
what my heart loves
what obstacles awaiting ahead
what possible tests for us
and what I had for you,
which never fades and changes

I've held myself strongly
finally,helplessly, I cried quietly on my bed
but it is a different tear
totally different from years ago...
Now, all tears solely out of pure disappointments
only special tears for you,
but also because of you, I tried so hardly to hold back my tears
It's you the reason to convince me that the day is still awaiting us
but only much more delayed, to a month from now

Out of a sudden, I recalled what you've told me dat night
the night we spent together outside your house
it wasn't long but memorable and eternal in my heart
and if you still remember
you told me, PATIENCE IS A KEY TO SUCCESS
I do always keep that in mind
because I knew the obstacles we will be facing from the beginning
So, I stop crying
I held back my tears
and I believe,I have faith in your promise,
It's written
the day is coming.........